My Sober Life Isn't Perfect

Even without the alcohol, life still has its problems.

Sobriety isn’t just one long day at the beach. Photo by Vidar Nordli-Mathisen on Unsplash

I used to get drunk and lie in bed at night thinking about how I would turn my life around.

Even though I drank every day, I somehow always had myself convinced that I’d get sober “tomorrow.” I was like Charlie Brown and Lucy with the football, but I was playing both parts.

It didn’t matter how many times I failed, I always thought the next time would work out differently—even if I did everything exactly the same.

What’s worse is that my daydreaming didn’t stop with just quitting drinking. Instead, I’d tell myself that I was going to fix all of my problems, all at once.